2013 - The Flash !!

Can’t believe its the last day of 2013.

FB gives you the privilege of reviewing your year and as I do that, I realize its been one heck of a year. All these years of my life stand aside when compared to 2013.

This year I have experienced the highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows. One day I m the poor Cinderella being troubled by the evil stepmother and the Next day a Fairy godmother appears and Poooffffff - I m the Princess :D 

The most surprising thing about this year is - It all happened in a Glimpse. 2013 sure would be the Super Hero - The FLASH of the many years in my life.

This year made me see things clearly than ever before. I learned to be myself and love myself.
And for the first time in ages I am stepping in to a new year with least expectations and no celebrations, no resolutions :)

Good-Bye to the memorable 2013 and Hellooo 2014 !!

Candid Evenings !!

I have been living alone for couple of years now and kinda developed a liking for solitude. The convenience of being alone or hanging out with friends at any time and as I want is pretty addictive.

This fall I had to move back home. Moving back was a big change for me. Though I am delighted about homemade food & company of family, I miss the ME time.

It all started around a month back when one day I agreed to help Mom with the laundry and reluctantly climbed 3 flights of stairs leading to the terrace where we dry the clothes.

I was pleasantly surprised to see the view. Quite a few pigeons were relaxing around. And the sunset view was mesmerizing.  I spent close to half an hour that day discovering the various benefits of doing the daily chore of laundry – The sunset hill, Kids playing in the street,  Various birds flying across the greyish-orange sky, View of a Temple and a Church, Train Whistles, Market across the street, Cool breeze. A 360°view of greenery and so much more. I became a regular :)

Sometimes I forget that I am a photographer. It took me a week or so to realize that my terrace is a potential spot to practice my photography skills. I have been carrying my camera to the terrace every now and then. It’s the same place but every time I visit I get to see something new and have been trying to capture the scenic view.

My Clicks from the Evenings I spend at the Terrace.

Somehow I have started looking forward to evenings.  Its more like playing hide n seek with the pigeons as I try to capture their moments, I felt they were playing hard to get :P Later I just sit there and watch the sun go down. The whole sunset experience – only gets better n beautiful everyday.

Recent times have been similar to the middle of nowhere situations. Within this life of chaos these few moments of joy & peace have really cheered me up day after day.

The 'Y' Factor !!

The cliché statement – Everything Happens for a Reason !! 

I usually reward back people with a sarcastic notion whenever they try to comfort me with this statement. I am not an anti-positive person but at the same time I don’t buy the alls gonna be fine, its not the end or something better is gonna happen crap.

I believe in seeing things as they are and facing the reality. It makes no sense to me to be all up & cheery when you are actually dying inside. For me its ok to cry for a while & to do all that stuff you feel like doing when you are down. It’s a part & process of healing. Hiding & burying the pain would only make things worse.

Recently I had one of those nights where sleep eludes you and your brain kinda decides to replay your whole life in a cinematic fashion. After hours of reel play I magically happened to connect the dots. As the sky slowly turned blue it dawned on to me that everything actually happened for a reason. I would not say a good one but yes one thing happened to give way to another and so on. 

Times when I was thinking life is all very rosy but things ended up in a disaster and times when disasters ended up in awesome life changing events. Well I still do stick to my realistic approach but the repulsion to the above cliché statement has been subsided.

Happy events don’t trigger the WHY question its only the mishaps which force us to dig into the WHY factor. Sooner or later we all would find out as to why something happened.

So all the meetups, breakups, moving to a new city, losing a job, missing a flight & so on - Everything will make sense someday. You would probably figure this out when you are actually not trying to figure out. Yeah sounds confusing but that’s how it works.

I would not promote positivism here but yes its all happening for a reason. Only time would tell us if its for the Good or Bad. So quit analyzing WHY with a magnifying glass. Do what you gotta do. Smile, shop, eat & party when you feel like. Cry & let out when you have to, there is no need to candy coat your feelings. Eventually you would learn to go with the flow.

Life is a choreographed dance, Get your groove on !!